Attachment is the trying to establish the value of something by what builds it.  Desire is the tendancy to mass builing blocks to construct the ego through attachment.  By finding our own meaning in the parts rather than the whole, we creat an inbalance which creates suffering.  In order to find meaning we must extract it from the whole, therefor, the whole must choose it's meaning independant of it's parts.  In order to maintain this peace, the meaning must be universal.  the meaning is to acknowledge life?

when we value ourselves by the parts that make us up (gender, fashion, politics, religion, etc) we deconstruct ourselves.  the self is a construction not a pile of pieces.  though a building may be a bunch of bricks, it does things that bricks cannot.  if we restrict ourselves to our bricks, we cannot trully be.

it's like an adventure in your normal environment.

that's such a heavy word...  hmmm

i think I've come to the conclusion that I cannot believe anything more than the here and now.  The symbols the stories and the concepts just won't sink in for me.  I can't seem to wrap my mind around any of them.  gods, deities, miracles, any of it.  But to a certain extent, it's very liberating.

I know that in my life, everything happens because it just does.  I know that I am responsible for everything that I do.  there is no higher being that I must rely on for my life to be normal or for good things to happen to me.  The good things that happen to me and others happen because other people choose to be nice, and because we choose to be nice to ourselves.  When we get into bad moods, we are there because on some level we feel that we need to be.  Of course there are biological factors, but the body obeys the mind to a large extent.

I like knowing that my love is unconditional.  I do not love because if I don't, I will not go to a special place afterwards.  there is no special place, so I will make my special place here with all of you.  If I were to love with incentive, then it would not be love.  By understanding that I am the one who chooses to feel, I have control over my disposition. 

For all of you wonderful people wondering where my poetry has been lately ;)


Wisdom

Life is donned on my fragile frame
And my eyes struggle to squeeze shut
Keeping the light at bay
As my mind develops.

When my eyes open
I am amazed by the world
But a curious thing happens
As truth and fairytales are twirled.

My eyes, now used to this trick,
Are bored with this simple life.
There is no more mysterious magic
Because reason wafts an equation of strife.

Through journeys, my eyes are perched
Hoping to catch a glimpse of meaning
But nothing satisfies my fate-parched-thirst
As I wonder if there really is value worth deeming.
Suddenly, something comes into view
But it spans passed the corners of both eyes.
Attempts at focusing the picture ensue,
But I fail to grasp its incredible size.
It feels like my eyes are being quartered
Like drawbridges trying to fit too big of a ship
Through the narrow passage of my martyred irises.
My understanding stretches but my portals eventually cripple.

I was not ready for a truth this grand
And my eyes lend me nothing these days
But the blurred shadows of truth, dim and bland,
Though I still try to absorb the enlightening rays.

My body is fragile again, but not as it was before.
With my eyes now blind and closed,
That large ship was able to finally hit shore.
Truth is not observed outwardly but rather inwardly composed.

Assumptions: 
I'm not the center of the universe but my ego is the center of my universe. 
There is nothingness after death because anything other than that would be an act of the ego trying to prolong itself.
We are products of conditioning.

I tried to define the value of life in a group blog a little while ago and learned a few things but i'm still mulling it all over.

I want to take a further look at what value is.  Why do we think things are important?  One could say we are taught what is important.  If you grow up in a christian house, christ is bound to be important to you, if you grow up in the desert, water will have a different value for you than it will for others.

To a large extent, we fight over what we find valuable.  Holy land is valuable, oil is valuable, ideals are valuable.  It may seem educated to get rid of what we find valuable and that this will get us peace.  however, i think a more accurate approach would be to make what we care about less valuable.  In the big picture, what we find valuable has no value.  When your dead it's all done and gone.  It isn't worth universal currency or some sort of system to achieve something.  the things we put this sort of value in, we confuse for necessity.  I had a blog earlier that said that we have confused money for a primary reinforcement and i think that it's true of other things too.  By making things "important" we say that it's necessary for survival or that some things are more necessary than others for our enjoyment.  By doing this we suffer.  I theorize that this first came up as a psychological evolutionary trait that was then taught throughout society to preserve life but now that we have overcome evolution with technology, I think it's no longer necessary. 

Why do we think that things are worth fighting for?  we want them for ourselves or we become attached to them.  Attachment is when something becomes so important to us that we become a part of it instead of being individually ourselves.  attachment in effect is conditional love.  which we all agree is bad (even though we all have a little).

When we make things important, we are being selfish.  it's that simple.  By putting value in things, we hurt others in order to fulfill our attachment to that thing.

that's gonna take some time to digest...  time for the metaphysical pepto...

CC

  I was thinkking today about how indigo's are generally rather egocentric but I think this is now a bit of a misconception.  usually they tend to non-conform which means they do things that are against the norm.  If naturally these individuals feel differently than their non-conformist attitudes direct and still act on that attitude, then they begin to act on perspectives that are not theirs by nature.  This means that they are very open minded and understand on some level that they aren't the center of the universe.  Perhaps this is not revoking what i've said previously and more like distinguishing the stages of which a person with this outlook matures.  complete egocentrism is the thought that our perspective is the only one which makes it rather hard for complex thought and philosophy, which a lot of us (indigo's) obviously excel at.  I think that being exposed to a perspective that is not our own by wanting to get attention via non-conforming allows or maybe forces us to come into contact with other peoples opinions.

It is very much my opinion that our perspectives are the most important things to our identities.  it shapes how we think what our morals are, what we act on, and how we interact with others.  our perspectives are shaped through our interactions and relationships with other people.  This can be conditioning, advice, role models, and various other ways of character modeling.

if we cannot understand others we will never know peace on either a microscopic or macroscopic reference.  If we cannot understand the rapists, criminals, presidents, leaders, priests, thieves, rappers, construction workers, drunks, saints, or junkies, we will never know how to coexist.  understanding perspectives is the only way to peace. 

Eventually when you can train yourself to remove the ego (ego being our predisposed perspective) and see the world without a perspective can you learn to love unconditionally.


i don't pretend to be a master or guru as i have so much to learn, this is more kind of putting my thoughts down so that i can organize them ^_^  hope you enjoyed them

=D
Carl

It is very important that this writing, should you choose to read it, take it with extreme and the utter-most sarcasm as it's dripping with the dry humor.  I'd include more but I hit the end of my fifth page for my paper, and well, that's that isn't it?



        When I look at life in general, I try to look at it in terms of perspective.  My own life is no exception.  It is through our relationships with others that our perceptions are shaped and molded.  By studying perspective, both my own and others, I‘ve been able to conquer many of my own problems and help others with theirs.  When everything I’ve learned boils away what’s left is the concept of perspective.  Perspective decides how beautiful art is, how people react to what one does, how things are created, and how others are maintained and so on.  From a communicative reference point, the message that is conveyed is more important than the actions or words said, even if they do not reflect the message, as this is what people respond to.
    I suppose one of my first perspectives was what I call: “the magic that is the world.”  When I was two years old, I got lost in a K-mart.  One of the store attendants found me and had brought me to the registers.  I noticed that I was crying but didn’t seem to be able to stop it even though I wanted to when one of the girls offered me a stick of gum.  There was something awesome about candy that was magic in nature.  I have always thought that if sin existed, gluttony would be the hardest to evade because it’s one of the only drives in life that we are actually born with the desire to carry out.  The simple things like taste, touch, or even how doors worked used to be mysterious and magical.  The world was an adventure to explore.
    Eventually, however, magic cannot hold it’s ground against science and when I began to mature and figure out how things worked, that magic began to fade.  One of the only things that remained magical were the times that I was able to spend with my parents together.  I think this maintained it’s grandeur because it was made sparse.  We lived in California now so the standard of living was lower and everyone had to work harder to keep afloat.  My dad worked as a dental technician and my mom worked as a nurse.  She knew everything, as all moms do, but of course my mom was special, as all moms are.  My dad knew everything too and my childhood was at it’s happiest times when he would play with us, my brother and I, on weekends.  Because they had to work all of the time, I was at a babysitter rather often.  I got to know many other children my age and sense no one had figured out what “cool” was yet, no one was out of the social circle.
    I feel now that having been babysat so much may have formed secondary parental bonds with my sitters and degraded my primary bonds with my parents somewhat.  It’s not like I blamed my parents as it wasn’t something they could help.  I now notice that many of my babysitters were sort of a mother/mentor/friend hybrid.  They cared about me like one of their own, taught me things like my teachers, and hung out with me like any other kid my age.  Some of them tried harder than others and I respect them for that but looking back on it now, each place seemed sort of like a dormitory than a home.  Nothing was mine but I still belonged there.
    Around fourth or fifth grade, I realized the truth that we all come to eventually, that being that the world completely and totally revolved around me and no one else.  There was something special about me that no one else had that would make me the star of my life which naturally made me rather competitive.  I sat in the sandbox making sandcastles and swinging all the time just thinking about how wonderful I was.  Isn’t it just grand to be a child?
    This took a different direction when I hit puberty.  Because my parents had raised me to be sensitive, I didn’t fit in at all with any of the other guys my age.  The few that I could get along with were outcasts of their own.  I don’t know if it was that I didn’t watch the right TV shows or I didn’t listen to the right music or I just didn’t have the genes to be cool like the other kids but I didn’t fit in very well.  Perhaps it was the lingering “I’m special” thoughts preventing me from socializing.  Whether I fitted in with the boys or not didn’t matter so much as I was still a boy at heart.  In the sixth grade, I had my first crush.  It’s comical now when I think about how she cold shouldered me for the next three years but I suppose that’s how the game is played at that age.
    When I got to high school, the story changed a little bit.  I had grown into the “punk” culture or what later became the current “emo” culture.  This is basically a culture that revolves around self pity and the hording of attention in indirect ways.  It’s incredibly egocentric but not necessarily egotistical.  My first crush had come back to me and told me that she was now interested in me, which was a new experience all in itself.  Of course I wanted all of the attention I could get, so I indulged her fantasy.  I say fantasy because she was actually involved with someone else and was also interested in many other men as well.  She told me about how horrible life was treating her and how all of her problems were stacking up.  I took it personally and still tried to be there for her.
    As much as I wanted to be her attention slave, when my parents asked us our opinions about moving across country, I anxiously expressed what a great idea it was.  I don’t know if I fully understood the ramifications of my decision but it didn’t matter.  When I told the girl that I would be leaving over summer forever, I got satisfaction in this little attention game of ours.  I suppose when someone pays attention to you, it gives you a sort of power over them.  I have a quote that “Those who crave attention ask a price.  People have to pay attention to be let in.”  When we finally got to West Virginia, I realized that my plan had backfired and now there was no way to fill my void of self pity.  My only positive thoughts were that I would be able to start over. 
    Though I was wallowing in my own self pity, I still maintained my sensitive man interior.  Though I wasn’t honest to myself, I lived very honestly, not telling lies or cheating.  I had been so strongly conditioned to behave properly that any deviation at all was met with harsh and strong feelings of guilt.  I don’t pretend to completely understand it but it seems that women that have been taken advantage of flock to these kinds of men.  Perhaps it’s the fact that they seem harmless or that they need someone to actually care about them.  Either way, I found my first girlfriend in my sophomore year of high school.
    My parents had brought me up in a stern manner with a gentle overtone so my values  were heavily imprinted.  When she started wanting to go further than I thought was right, problems occurred and the relationship crippled.  Guilt up to this point in my life had been a very strong factor in my decision making.  I don’t blame my parents directly for this though it was my upbringing that caused the constant grip of being held back from rebelling against authority like the other young men my age by this self righteous guilt trip.  I am grateful for it as it’s kept me straight and narrow but I sometimes resent it because I was unable to be like everyone else my age.
    I met my second girlfriend in my senior year.  She was attracted to me for the same reason the last had been.  Perhaps I hadn’t learned my lesson or maybe I simply wanted to feel needed, either way, it was very childish to indulge it.  The relationship expanded over about a nine month time period, spilling over into college when we graduated.  I had spent a lot of “firsts” with her in all areas of life.  She really allowed me to open some doors that would not have been open to me otherwise.  However, her perspective of life was lived through drama.  The forming of dysfunctional ties in order to exploit them for the maximum amount of frenzy made a relationship with her, very difficult.  I really do have to thank her in the end, as she weaned me off of my self pity as  she didn’t put up with it or acknowledge it at all.
    When we broke up I was utterly devastated.  I had stockpiled so much security in her dominant female roll that it was very hard to take responsibility over what I should feel without her having a say in it.  It was at this point that I became very interested in Buddhism.  Spending hours reading up on meditation, along with being a natural at it, made the lifestyle into a new support system for me.  Along with becoming more Zen, I also found myself becoming more and more bohemian and carefree. 
    The next experience was a wave that rocked the boat harder than it had ever been rocked before.  When my perception was finally able to distinguish the difference between attachment (which was practically every relationship I’d ever had up to this point) and love, I was able to control my life in a way that finally made me feel comfortable.  The most important perspective in my life that I’ve learned is the concept of attachment and it’s part of why I want to be a counselor.  In order for a relationship to work, both people must stay themselves.  If they become attached to each other, then they are nothing more than an extension of the other.  If they are not separate people then they cannot experience happiness.  The greatest happiness in a relationship occurs when two people can remain themselves and enjoy each others company rather than their own.  This way the relationship does not suffocate the couple or create drama.  I have been fortunate enough to find one of the best friends of my life who shares this belief with me, and we are very happy together now.  When the ego is finally understood, a greater perception of other peoples feelings, thoughts, and actions can be comprehended.

I took a religious studies class not to long ago and it's been teaching me the value of looking at things without a biased perspective.  I tried to look at some elimentary aspects that form our world as humans and look at them from a universal perspective.  It really challenged my faith because i tried to look at everything with strict logic and reason.

One of the conclusions i came to was that from a universal perspective, scientifically speaking, time does not exist.

Assumptions:
1  Matter cannot be created or destroyed, thus the universe has always been here, without a beginning or end (this is really hard to graps but beginnings and ends are a human perspective)
2  Time is made continuous by an infinite number of "presents."

<---Past------------------------------present-----------------------------------Future----->

now to assume that there is a finite amount of time, we could say that there are a certain number of presents within a span of time.  this means that there is a slope of "things happenning in time vs the time that they happen in"

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                                    Time

to assume that there is a finite number of years that the universe exists, then there must also be a unit that we measure a finite number of "presents."  This doesn't have to be done, but it usually is out of neccessity for our language.  What we will normally see in this instance is say that the present is measured in one year time frames.  The graph would look like this:

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I        /
I      /
I    /
I  /
I/________ I
              1 year

now if we strung together 5 years of "presents,"  it would look like this:

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I        /            /            /            /            /            /         
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I    /            /            /            /            /            /
I  /            /            /            /            /            /
I/            /            /            /            /            /
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Our timeline would look like many of this kind of graph assuming that there are a finite number of "presents" in a finite time of universe. each - on the timeline would be one of the diagonal lines going up.  These lines stop at a certain point because at that point, they cease being the present, and become the future, which is a new present.

<---Past------------------------------present-----------------------------------Future----->

However from a nonbiased perspective, the universe has always been and always will be.  this means that the future is going forth at the same pace that the past is going back.  one may say this is impossible but it simply is, everything happens the way it does because that's how it happened.  to assume that the past and the future are infinite in amount means that each individual "present" will encompass a smaller amount on the timeline.  because we aren't looking at 6 years anymore, we are looking at an infinite number of years, we will see that the periods shrink in size but grow in number.  the diagonal line (the slope) used to end because the future began.  now the future is approaching closer because it's getting bigger and the part where the diagonal line begins is pused more towards the future because the past as well is increasing.  this eventually pushes the diagonal line, into a straight one because the things happenning in time stay the same, however, the amount of time that the "present" measures becomes closer to zero.  if we take the limit of this new graph which will look like this

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                                                          Time
if we take the limit of each individual colum of line, we will not that the slope or happenning vs time, becomes zero as past and future increase in amount.  Because in this perspective, the past and future go on forever, there is no need to wait forever to see if it happens.  this means that we can assume that the "presents" are getting infinitely smaller and can be equated to zero when the limit is taken.

because from this universal perspective, the present = zero, and the timeline is composed of "presents," the timeline is equal to zero because 0+0+0+0+0+0+0+0+0+0+0+0+0 will go on forever but will eventually equal zero as an infinite amount of zero's will still be zero because there is no value being added.  sense the timeline is zero then time does not exist.

This is only from a universal (meaning from the universes perspective) perspective.  from a human perspective, we measure time through perception.  time moves faster for some of us than others because our perception of time is different.  however measuring an amount of time exists only when we make time finite, like incruments such as minutes hours and days.  we measure days in how long it takes a new sunrize to come but from the universes perspective, earth is not the only planet with days.

This theory partially entails that time did not exist (as we know it today) until the first animal first developed a memory.  because our memory is the only way to percieve the past as it is not a real quantity.  you cannot show me one minute like you could show me 1 liter of water or the effect that 1kg of substance has.  this is why history, before we were born almost sounds like fiction to some people.

Similarly, light did not exist until there were eyes to see it, sound for ears to hear it and so on.  This also eludes to the concept that anything is possible if it is developed.  if eyes were never evolved, we would say that vision is impossible, how could such a thing exist, to be able to capture light, an intangible substance and perceive it.  liekwise we often say that psychic abilities or precognition, the slew of kinesis' etc do not and cannot exist.  they will if there is a need and a means to them. 

I came up with this on my own with a little help in discussion with my bro, if this theory looks like someone elses please let me know so i can read em up ^_^

I hope this thoroughly boggled your mind xD

SIncerely,
Carl

At first my opinion of the indigo culture was that of adoration and praise, but in my studying of myself, and other indigo's i've noticed that they have weaknesses just like everyone else.  I was finally driven to right this when i noticed many of my friends were having the same problems.

My generation seeks to be unique in every shape and form that it can.  The outlets used for this are wide and varied.  This is done solely for attention though any of them that strive to be unique will probably not admit to it.  There is a strange paradox that they strive for something that they cannot admit to wanting because society has deprived them of the right to feel this way.  Whether they strive to feel this way because their parents or other conditioning figures neglects them, the result is the same, egocentrism.  The most common outlet for this phenomenon that I’ve witnessed and even been/am a part of, is nonconformity.  It has grown at such an infectious pace that many do not even realize that they do it.  This is the ultimate attention grabber.  The things that stand out the most are the things that go against the grain: men wearing pink shirts, excessive black clothing, short evocative skirts, excessive tanning, etc.  Some groups of people will call this indigo syndrome.  It is a quasi spiritual concept that the globe as a whole is being affected psychologically by itself.  This is probably due to the fact that technology is increasing in its availability and effect.  Many people are beginning to afford luxuries that keep their attention.  This holds true for both sides of the attention war.  The children spend all their time playing a game or shopping at a mall that they end up depriving themselves of attention, or the parents spend all of their time indulging themselves that the child feels deprived.  The result is that the newest generation feels as though they should be treated differently from everyone else.  It’s very easy to misunderstand just how subtle this is as many “indigo’s” will attest that they hate such people.  When speaking to one about something practical they may disagree on a subject (it is more common to disagree because this goes against the grain) because of some strange abstract personal reason often including how they feel in the reason.  This sounds like it makes sense but that’s the opposite, we usually agree/disagree with sensible things based on if it makes sense or not, not how it makes us feel.  They also seem to have a peculiar physical condition.  Most of these kinds of people are ADD or ADHD, this doesn't mean that all people with those conditions are indigo's it simply means that many indigo's are predisposed to have this, or act this way.  This supports their lifestyles as well allowing them to get special attention for medicine, school exceptions, and doctor attention.  It is also common to see extreme exaggeration about something that applies to them on an acute level.  An example of this could be when they describe an event that happened to them as something so hugely impacting personally that no one else could possibly feel how they did.  This can be said over a break up or some sort of physical pain or even something amazing that's seen.  They often cling to these moments as well, which they use to try and define themselves.  It is also very common that they feel, or at least say that they feel certain irrational dilemma’s while also being unable to explain why they feel this way, often answering any pursuits with “I just feel that way.” An indigo may say that they voted for a very conservative candidate (being in a mostly young liberal majority) because “I just feel so afraid of the other candidate” when their fears are both unfounded as well as attention drawing.  It has come to the point now that because all of the nonconformists are nonconforming that many of them are overly conforming in an attempt to cause friction with their peers.  This causes drama which in turn leads to attention.  It is important to note that the type of attention is specific from person to person.  One may crave negative attention because the drama satisfies them where as another may crave positive attention for being creative.  It is also important to note the concept of extremes.  There is no moderate or middle ground in the world of an indigo, it is always extreme.  When given a survey the only things that are marked are 1’s or 10’s.  There may be an occasional 5, where they are presented with a subject that doesn’t affect them but for the most part, nothing is gray shaded.  This has made certain words such as: very, a lot, huge, big, giant, little, small, almost meaningless.  New vocabulary has been created to express thoughts though the physical implications for such things are also usually ignored.  “Ubber” the German word for super, implies that something is in vast quantity.  It is used all the time though few actually respect the meaning of the word with regards to its quantity.  Most depression that is seen today is caused by this egocentrism.  Because all that matters is the self and the attention, it is very easy to be injured or hurt in such terms.  This causes more drama, which is actually encouraged by many of their subconscious tendencies.  This is another crucial concept, many of them are not aware that they are asking for attention though this is often the source of much of their problems.  There is something “holy” in being different for them.  The only path for peace for these people is to realize that there is no peace if everyone strives to be different, rather reflect on themselves and realize just how similar we all are and capitalize on it by encouraging internal and external social growth, rather than segregation.

Indigo's are not egotistical or selfish necessarily, they simply have sublte flaws just like the rest of us.

Pain is not what we have defined it to be. There is no such thing as pain or suffering. Physical pain is a process that the body goes through in order to inform your mind that you have an injury and should favor it. Pain in this sense has been taken to an egocentric level where we believe that other people have the capability of hurting us. They can hurt our bodies and thus provoke a response in our body that we find unpleasant but that person cannot hurt you on a soul level. It’s simply not possible. When we are hurt we believe that something has happened to US rather than our bodies. We believe that some pain has invaded our being and is causing us to feel the way that we do when in reality the evolution of being sensitive in injured areas has allowed us to go through the healing process much more smoothly.

Suffering in an emotional sense is also equally void and null. The only reason that people suffer mentally is because they make a choice to. We may think that because our partner leaves us or that a loved one dies, that we suffer. But this is also egocentric. We have attachments with that person so a piece of ourselves are taken along with that person when they leave and this is the case with attachment. When you live for someone else whether partially or wholly doesn't matter the result is the same. You cease to be yourself. We may believe that we loved that person but love allows for loss. Love is selfless. If you suffer because you lose someone it is because it affects YOU and YOU are now alone because you're without the part of YOU in them that you lost. Love is unfaultering in it's adoration and happiness for friends and family in all stages of life, there are no exceptions. To view death so seriously is an egocentric view. We are conditioned to think that death is serious because it is one of the only things that threatens our ego's dominance over our lives. We are taught to fear death and we are taught to fear separation because it threatens the ego. You cannot under any circumstances have both fear and love harmoniously in any instance. You can choose to fear or choose to love. Suffering emotionally is a choice.

The end realization is that whether it be physical or emotional, pain is a misconception. The concept of hurt is when a person instills pain into/onto another, but this is misunderstood. We cannot inflict pain onto others, we can only damage the body. This is indirect and it's not real pain, if such a thing exists. This, is a reaction. We cannot emotionally hurt someone, we can only manipulate them to fear things. Whether it be lonliness, depression, anger, hate, hoplessness, or any other negative emotion, we do not feel them if we choose not to because they are all reactions to our fears.

Because there is no direct way to cause someone pain or “hurt” them, then hell cannot exist as a divine entity would have to be both direct and perfect in execution. Physical pain is indirect and is in fact a bodily response, not a mental or soul one. It does not make sense to be hurt divinely by an indirect reaction of your body. Nor can the torture of emotion be any different. We can choose not to fear when we realize ourselves. Fear is an evolutionary trait that allows us to react with much sharper concentration to an imminant threat. This is not the same fear that we categorize with emotional fear. The concept of hell was created to codition people to fear pain and in doing so respect the “power” of hell. Hell cannot exist because pain does not exist and heaven was created due to the fear of dying. There is only what is, and that's it. You can choose to embrace the everything that we are, or you can choose to fear and never be trully happy for there is no fear in love.

Pain is not real, there is only the fear of the unknown and the reactions that occur because of it.